1. All change can only happen via יהוה
2. Centre
3. The truth
4. Your Gift
5. Your Eldership
6. Spiritual Gym
7. Spiritual Lab
8. Inner Shape
9. Heaven
10. Sex in Society
11. Spiritual $\leftrightarrow$ Physical
12. Birth
13. Possesion
14. Prayer
15. Darkness & Light
16. Choice
17. Note on language
18. Aberrant behaviour
19. Topology
20. Ultimate Good
21. Faith
22. Meditation
23. Love
24. Finite Beings
25. Snake
26. Context
27. Perception
28. Evolution
29. Here & now
30. Pleasing the Creator
31. Devotion
32. Mercy
33. Free will
34. Freedom
35. Superiority
36. Spiritual foundation
37. Spiral in time
38. M&F
39. Messiahs
40. Nature
    1. Water
41. Temple
42. Forced
43. Relationship
44. Natural Laws / Divine Laws

If richer and fuller languages for redemption are to evolve, fantasies that fetishise the past must be relinquished

Each organ is a recording and playback mechanism, blood is the recording tape with metal filings, cells are the components that make up the living crystals, and bones are the crystallisation of this information.

In order for there to be an outcome, the laws of symmetry must be broken.

Just as we wake in the morning hungry for food to nourish our bodies, do we need to awaken with the same spiritual hunger to sustain our souls.

"Nothing left to lose" implies that you had something to lose and then were placed—or forced— into having nothing left to lose.

To live a "big" life takes "big" energy, not only from you, but from your environment. Think of moving a skateboard 1km, versus a car, or an 18-wheeler..

During the growing phase , your gift is your tool. If it becomes a weapon, then you will live by the rule of the sword.

Eldership is attained/ordained when you gain the wisdom of your gift. Which is expressed in gratitude: "I have been granted my portion." That is "I have been blessed with the gift of ...".

We don't look for a religion. I have a destination, and I will take the path that will best lead me to my destination, not taking into account the influential effects of my destiny.

All change can only happen via יהוה

If Ha'Shem is the Source of everything, then true manifestation can only extend from this Source. Therefore we must direct any and all desire, any and all prayer, every request to Ha'Shem - for only He can cause real change to occur.

Centre

The centre is a position relative to the space of the containment.

And to some extent the rules and mechanics of measurement.

The truth

The truth will set you free &mdash

to do good, or to do evil!

Your Gift

During the building phase, your gift is your tool.

If it becomes a sword, then, if you live by the sword, you will die by the sword.

Your Eldership

Your eldership is obtained/ordained/recognised when you gain the wisdom of the gift.

Which means "I have been granted my share" i.e. "I have been gifted with...".

Spiritual Gym

A spiritual gym is a place where you

• lift weights/concepts heavier than regularly
• carry a concept further than usual
• refine your techniques of research

Spiritual Lab

A spiritual laboratory is where you carry out carefully crafted experiments to see what responds.

Inner Shape

Many teach you about external movements, how to deal with outside forces. But it is the inner shape that is most important. For it is through the inner shape, that we experience the outer. Here we shape the inner. We focus on the internal shape of things. But what occurs on the outside is of prime importance.

As the eyes and the ears, the nose and mouth, the heart, legs and arms of G-d having a human experience, this is where you could begin to embrace and embody the truth of your existence.

Heaven

Sex in Society

Society can only, and perhaps needs to, operate in a sexless environment. Once sex enters the picture, it introduces all the emotional trauma and baggage that a person (people) carry and their relationship with power and money.

This is an example of the connection between the internal and the external. The actual event, coitus, is not what affects the person long term, but the subjective, inner, experience of that act.

Even when coitus has not taken place, the influence of the sexual upon the behaviour of the people can still be significance. It can be exploited in many ways, both good and bad. If the ultimate goal of the usage is material it will result in perversion. If it is used for love, it will enhance all, especially all especially those who are in relationship with the participants—it is an act of love.

Spiritual $\leftrightarrow$ Physical

If we are truly spirit then the physical world is a delusion, a projection, which we are constantly creating and maintaining. Thus our spiritual energy is dispersed in maintaining an illusion of ourselves that is incorrect.

The question then is whether you spend your energy in ensuing that your physical being—which is a delusion—is comfortable or in ensuring that your spiritual—where your true essence resides— being is nourished.

If it is the former, and all your spiritual energy is dissipated in material pursuits for the comfort of physical being, then it will diminish one's spiritual being until it will/may eventually be extinguished altogether.

Birth

The impact of spirit entering the body, and encountering the constraining environment we are born into, is traumatic. This is what creates the spaces of forgetfulness, the places of cognitive dissonance. For how could such a limited space contain the full wisdom of Torah.

Possesion

Is it possible for the soul of one person to "occupy" the body of another?

Most tales of possession speak of an entity, generally demonic, that takes possession of another. These encounters generally come from another realm. In order for this not to occur, you have to call to the Divine protection of your space and your creation—which is the body that your soul has "breathed life into". Remember how breath enters your body and the spreads and enters every cell of the body, so spiritually there is a breath or spirit, that vivifies every organ of the body.

We do have the choice whether to allow another power over us, whether to "give" one's power to another, or even more extremely, to a material goal or object–a drug, a woman, money, false idols, or some other form of material addiction. We are of an addictive nature, and need to direct, or constrain, our addictions appropriately. If we become addicted to positive things, like studying Torah (mental), worshipping G-d (emotional), practising random acts of kindness and chastity (physical) (tzedakah), that is the practice that we refer to as religion.

Mysticism, on the other hand, is a call to the unknown, by the unknown itself—which is referred to as the mystery itself. Through faith, the alchemy of the unknown, the dark, and mysterious, produces gold.

Prayer

Come to terms with my .... nature. Emerge from the closet, so as to say. Live fully expressing the truth of who and what I am, in order to fulfil my purpose in service to my divine nature and my fellow humans.

To spread my wings and fly.

To be able to balance my masculine purpose and feminine desire for union.

To be free of the constraints of the programming of my past (ancestors). To release the constraints that prevent me from being who I really am and express the love and light of my inner being.

Focusing on joy in me life, letting G!d take me to the money.

Darkness & Light

The darkness is inside. So whenever I am alone, I am in darkness. There is only light outside me. Thus when I are with others, I am in light (enlightened?).

Only when I am looking outside of myself, am I seeing light. Thus we conclude that outside is real because I can see it (see the light), whereas inside – where I cannot see what I am experiencing – is thus unreal.

Choice

Assuming that we are faced with the choosing between a spiritual and a material option, if you choose the spiritual, then it is a spiritual path that you will embark upon. If, however, you choose the material option, it is a material path that you will find yourself upon. Both are filled with challenges and blessings, and both are valid. It is a life (existential) choice; and one can choose the other at any point. Though we say choose the spiritual, and fall into the material.

Note on language

What has astounded me is the fascinating way in which language has developed. If one looks at these interesting coincidences, it becomes quite mysterious. For example, let's look at the two words sacred and scared in English.

Let's lay some groundwork. The consonants are the letters of form. In our case they are 'SCRD', which is the form of both SaCReD and SCaReD. They cannot be expressed without the vowels which, in this case, are 'a' & 'e'. Vowels represent the feminine, and require the breath to be spoken, else they remain silent. 'A', the first letter of the alphabet, also represent the alpha, the divine.

Sacred then has first the 'a', representing the sacred and then the form 'C'. Whereas scared first has the form, and then afterwards we have the divine represented by the 'A'. In the first, sacred, we place the divine before the form, whereas in the second, scared, we have placed the form before the divine. When we start with the divine we have 'creation' during which the 'creatures' were created. So we derive 'sacred creation' populated by 'scared creatures'.

• 'ED' is that part of the word that introduces the aspect of time.
• 'SCR' are root letters (consonants) and 'AE' are the vowels representing the feminine, breath & the divine.
• "C", a only hard consonant (the only one), comes before 'a' in scared, - 'a' comes after 's' in sacred.

So, the creature that accepts the Divine before form accepts the primacy of the sacred, whereas the one that believes that the form is primary, will be scared.

Aberrant behaviour

All aberrant behaviour occurs due to an "unnatural", excessive or unnecessary constraint that has been imposed on the system — which is the exclusive abode of human existence. It begins with a disconnect, an acknowledgement of a separation.

 &nbsp — R' Y"mba.

Topology

If one is of a specific shape, then that defines one's topology which will define a certain relationship with the world around one.

Ultimate Good

The Supernal rests only on what is surrendered to him.

This is an expression of the ultimate Good of the Divine. For Good will always give us a choice. Thus G-d does not force us to experience Him. Yes, it is true, that we reap our karmic rewards according to our actions, but one could say that that is inherent in the system. It is an expression of the very laws, whether physical or spiritual, that are the dynamics of the very experience (Universe) that we exist in.

Faith

Where knowledge ends, faith begins.

It is through faith which transcends comprehension that one can feel true closeness to G-d.

Inasmuch as my intelligence and the root of my soul are of too limited a capacity to constitute a "chariot" or abode for His blessed Unity in Perfect Truth. Since my mind cannot conceive nor apprehend Him with any degree of certainty in the world, nor even one iota of that of the Prophets and the Patriarchs.

What is faith then? It is the believe/knowledge that we are only a small part of the greater whole, and that what constitutes the totality is far greater than anything I can imagine. Thus life consists of an exploration into this great mystery.

“We know that human vision assimilates only a small fragment of the spectrum; as far as our senses are concerned, the rest of it does not exist.”
— Rabbi Adin Steinsaltz

It is more than likely that as far as all our senses are concerned, the rest does not exist. We cannot know what we don't know; we cannot comprehend the incomprehensible. And most of us have a survival mechanism, that keeps us safe in what we know, and is very reluctant to experience the unknown—a dark and terrifying place, filled with all sorts of monsters that we do may not be able to handle. Besides, it might cause a complete reassessment of the current life experience that you are going through.

The process reality of being is beyond our cognitive reach (Henry Bergson)

{NOTE: Processist, processuality, processism. All processes can be viewed as modifications of substances (material bodies).}

Meditation

Meditation that does not lead to clarification of commitment & action is entirely insufficient.
   — R’ Y”mba

Love

Love what you have. You can only desire what you don't have. (Therefore love is not desire!)

Hate what you have, then you will love something that you don't have. That which represents the counter to that which you have.

Finite Beings

If we are finite beings, and although fashioned from the cloth/image of the Infinite Supernal Being, we are enclosed in a finite "vehicle", perhaps there is a part of G-d's desire that would like His "children" to return to Him, as is often said in the Biblical readings. The only way to know the path to His door, is through receiving that part of each of us where He exists. Thus, I say, in each finite being there is a piece of the infinite, otherwise we could never have encountered the paradoxical idea of the existence of the finite within the infinite.

Snake

The tree is a snake entity that emerges out of the background of the Tree of Life.

Context

Abulafia could not speak of it other than in the context within which they were all steeped (both him and his audience). Just as a mathematician can only use mathematics to express what he sees, so the Rabbi's could only speak in the language of their teachers.

Perception

All perception takes place in a straight line between the recipient and perceived source of the event. Does the response have to be straight line as well? Would that be the simplest and most direct. But is it the best?

Evolution

You can only be freed by someone/something from the outside.
You can only be freed by someone/something that is itself free!

• Revolution: if it is from the inside, it will only produce another version of what was. Often the same design. Even the same inmates – just a different location, and perhaps guards/wardens with different faces.
• Evolution: All evolution occurs due to outside force(s). However its disruptive effect is relative to the inner coherence/harmony of the body/society that is evolving/changing.
• All evolution is built on the previous iteration, and
• there are always those left behind Noah's Ark
  More accurately, every higher order of magnitude contains within it every lower order of magnitude as well (simultaneously).

Here & now

• Absolute: here & now

The only absolute is that you are here, and aware. This "point" of awareness we call "Now". And the place that you experience it, is called "Here".

Even though the "now" of your experience is not simultaneous with the Now of the occurrence. It has to become the anchor upon which your life is tethered.

• Relative: past & future

The past is like sight. Depending on the perspective/the line upon which you gaze, you will see your past – which is the only real past you know. All the rest, that we call history, are narratives (generally told by the victors) and guesses as to what actually occurred. But the only true experience you have of the past, is those you have had, that you have lived.

And those experiences morph and change as time goes by, till they become vague discordant memories of a time long gone.

• Absolute/Relative

To know, to experience, to perceive of something as relative, there needs to be an absolute frame of reference. Even if that frame is relative to some greater system, it becomes the "absolute", fixed point of reference. The Axis around which your whole world turns. In order to change my life I have to change this Axis Mundi (the central pillar) upon which my whole life stands.

This is like the compass which needs one fixed foot in order know where the other is directed.

Pleasing the Creator

Bestow להנאת הבורה - for the delight of the Creator. Same as a parent/child relationship; or perhaps a teacher/student; or, best, a mentor & a novice.

Think of the first time a child "gives" something to its parent. How the parent delights in that gift. Whether it is the smile of a baby, or the scribbles of a young child, most parents value it for years. Think of a student that passes his grades, how proud is the teacher. Or a novice that understands the teachings, and the teacher knows that he is on the right path. So it for our Lord and Master, the Shepherd that bore us.

It seems that the constraint that holds most of us, is around our lack of giving towards our parents, and thus our ancestors - upon whose shoulders we stand. We seem to lack in compassion and forgiveness even for those who bore us, and sustained us, until we were able to make our own decisions (even the bad ones). We have forgotten about honour, and respect and decency - which implies, nay requires, some sort of code or covenant. In the same way, and I think this is the root cause of much of our disease — we no longer pay respect to our Creator. Like spoilt children, we even resent what we have been provided, always looking at and desiring, what we don't have — but seldom taking responsibility for the mess we ourselves have engendered.

Shamanically: "Magic of their Alchemical Union". Not personal. Shitty parents. Need to enter spirit, connect to your soul-purpose. As nothing can come into being without spirit, which working through each one of us, enabled us to manifest. It is all spirit. Do not be lulled into thinking it is literal, material or empirical — imagining that you are the real deal, the full package. That is foolish. There is so much more than you in this world...

Devotion

Devotion consists of:

• Prayer (words)
• Movement (dance)
• Music (sound)

Mercy

Free choice as a turning away

The image from the Zohar is of G-d turning His Eyes away, showing the whites of His Eye/I, in order to allow us to be human. In this picture, He Acts like a true lover, giving you the opportunity to reject Him (or Her).

Oh the joy when you choose Her. The righteous abundance that is showered upon you. The service that is required and the awesome, miraculous tasks that are laid before me. Thank you, my Guardian. Not measured in riches of this world, but riches of another that are worth far more in this world than any jewel or other earthly artifact.

Free will

Why is following the Torah so onerous for so many? If it is indeed the blueprint of Creation, is this blueprint so flimsy, so delicately put together? If Ha’Shem is omnipotent, why is there so much difficulty in following his commands? Why do we have to be cajoled and threatened, into obeying His Holy Word? Would we not, especially those who have seen His miracle, just follow them naturally?

Is it because we have been granted some of the Divine essence, or power, that we call “free will”.

However, this free will can only be expressed as a negative – that is to go against the “Will of G-d”.

To have any choice in the realm of the omnipotent perfection, I would have to have the ability to negate the existence of such omnipotence—a contradiction in itself. Perhaps the only way to express this is through taking a position of against the existence of G-d, declaring myself part of the tribe whose structure is build around the belief that there is No G-d. This attitude becomes an action in the world and the members build a system around this core belief, explaining the universe and our world in terms of this belief. This line of thinking always end up at question of the first cause, “In the beginning”, then speaks of a state or an unfolding of effects, but avoiding the question of how did the space and the configurations that make these effects possible, arise in the first place.

Freedom

What is freedom truly?

Freedom to

• express yourself
• be yourself
• who you truly are
• realise your dreams (not phantasies)

[Q: Is freedom necessary in order to serve others?]

First, one has to learn who you are and for that we need..

Freedom of constraint, constraint of freedom

Superiority

A major motivation for religious endeavours, it seems, is the feeling of superiority that it engenders, and is, in many cases, encouraged. Thus humility has been a principle of all teachers of the mysteries. In fact is a requirement for anyone on the journey of authentic faith—and is one of the ways of separating one who has encountered the flame of truth, and one who claims to have, but has not.

Spiritual foundation

A spiritual tradition that exists on a solid foundation, one that is based on a dynamic and spirited synthesis between the complimentary dynamics that oppose and the opposing dynamics that compliment one another. The process being one of thesis, antithesis and synthesis; declaration, opposition and resolution.

Spiral in time

Every journey is circular.

As we live and grow, the goal is to gain increased awareness of the immensity and complexity of the world we live in. However, Adam is only able to perceive it to whatever depth he is capable of.

The extent of his vision, depends on how far he can "throw" his dream body. If you can't even imagine it, how will you even be able to receive it. If you cannot envision another way, you will just work on more of the same, extending in a certain direction. This is breadth. It is horizontal expansion. How wide is your vision; how broad is your outlook; how large is yuor "sphere" of influence?

Length speaks of power, of will, of decisiveness. How far can the vision go. How much energy am I willing to invest in it? What is the length of the river, speaks also of how much water flows down it.

M&F

This symbol is a representation of the principle of the dynamic of masculine and feminine.

It is similar to the principle of the polaroid lens, which blocks (or affects) the light on only one plane, either the horizontal or the vertical - orthogonal (at 90 degrees) to one another.

In order to pass through this blockage, I need to align myself on of the two axes. Which means an alignment of the binary (2d) context that keeps us imprisoned in 3d.

What we derive from that, is that the dynamic between the masculine and the feminine - and thus, by derivation, between the male and the female - as in

But is actually orthogonal, as represented by:

Messiahs

There can be many messiahs, and many types of messiahs, but there can only be One G-d.

Nature

G-d speaks through the natural world. Nature is G-d speaking to us. Not G-d, but G-d's words!

G-d as the expression of the natural universe. Idols are man made representations of said universe.

The G-d I speak of is not man-made, but exists before the universe was created. In fact, G-d is the universe (and more). Thus we can say "G-d created the world."

Most of are spiritually uplifted by being in nature.

Water

Temple

Rise up and overcome the idol worshippers. Destroy their idols, not by blowing them up, but by starving them of attention. For there is no physical (or geographical) escape, like the Israelites did from Egypt in the story of the Exodus, which has exerted its influence on us throughout the ages. In other words, there is no more room for horizontal expansion. So the only other place to expand is vertically — and that would necessitate a deeper investigation and exploration of the "spiritual" or upper world(s). It will open up whole new spaces for us to explore. The only other alternative is for there to be a decimation of the population, thus making space for future geographic expansion!

Mathematics might make this a bit clearer. It is simpler if we begin with two dimensions, $x$ and $y$. The basic axes that we are used to from school. However, if we want to represent three dimensions, we need to add another axis at $90^0$ to the other two. As this would cause the 3rd axis to rise vertically off the page, we represent it by a diagonal dashed line.

The idea would be to fashion, and occupy, a holy land. Determine spaces where the idol-worshipers and the child-sacrificers are removed from our midst, and from which they are excluded. In addition, the ethics of these spaces has to be such that there will be no fertile ground on which these weeds will be able to grow.

This need needs to start in our minds. We need to be able to visualise/imagine that place. Thereupon we will be able to begin building the space we wish to live in, by upholding the principles necessary to lay the foundation of the temple that will enable that space.

Together we build, divided we suffer.

Do you know the Truth? Will you give your life to hold the Truth as your guiding light? Will you follow those who know and speak the truth?

"How do I discern what is the truth" you might ask? I say — if you have experienced It, you know It. The fear will dissappear.

Always the Truth speaks, though it always speaks quietly, never shouting. It is referred to as that quiet inner voice. How often do you listen?

Forced

If you are expected to uncritically accept something, then it is very likely that you are being force-fed a line of mysticism and superstition whose sole aim is to defraud you, possibly humiliate you and, in rare occurrences, cause harm to you. You are being asked to believe -- in the absence of all evidence -- that what some stranger is telling you is the truth just because that person says so.

Relationship

Thoughts on why we need a sacred ritual to focus the sexual energy that the feminine is the recipient of:

The masculine collects all this “sexual – creative energy that needs to be made manifest. For his direction is transformation from the spiritual to the material – from the crown chakra down to the sexual chakra, from Keter to Schinah. The feminine, the receptive, awaits this energy to enter into her and she is the medium in which the spiritual is made manifest. So, sexually, she accepts the gifting of the masculine into her very being. What should emerge from this is a child, but now when we have sex for other reasons, the creative energy will need to find another outlet. This often manifests in possessive emotional energy. She needs to be able to move the energy from the material to the spiritual. This is why we need the sacred ritual. The kundulini snake that will unwind the energy from the base of the spine into the heavens.

Thoughts on nutrient absorption being a metaphor for male/female dynamics, or why we believe in the perfect partner…

The cell needs certain nutrients. It creates a protein receptor, a huge, macro-molecule, which then emerges from the cell wall. Its roots in the primal fluid within which the cell lives, its head in the universal fluid that surrounds the cell. There it waits, a receptor, listening to all the sounds, all the calls, all the music of the spheres that surrounds it. It gets enchanted sometime. But if it is healthy, and in alignement, it will recognize the sign it is listening for, and then it will morph, and change itself, to begin to send out the vibrational energy to pull this nutrient into it’s being. It does not know from anything except the musical vibrations whether it will fit or not. Assuming, balance and perfection, it will fit like a glove to a hand, the key that opens up the doorway to the core of the cell. There it will be consumed and in it’s giving aid the cell in its life and journey. It is why the masculine seeks annihilation, for through that there is transformation. And the creative journey is one of annihilation, transformation and creation.

A moment on the cell that is a little off center – emotionally, or otherwise, then the protein will accept a substitute, perhaps something that is close, and bring it in. This will provide some nutrition, but there will be a side effect. Thus needing more than is healthy of this nutrient, you will have an allergic reaction to it, or it will hurt you.

Natural Laws / Divine Laws

“laws of the solar system as derived from the five regular solids… was the result of divine law, interpreted not just as a geometrical but also as a mystical harmony..”
    Mystic, Mysticism and Magic – Joscelyn Godwin p148 – Johannes Kepler

brought me to the following:

1. All laws, even those that are “scientific” are expressions of divine law. For instance, the laws of gravity, are Divine laws.
2. To look at one’s life in that manner, seeing that one is contained in sorroundings filled with G-d’s laws. And that every action is a dialogue (a negotiation) with these Divine laws.
3. That is how science co-opted religion so completely. Because these were mystics who penetrated the secrets of the universe, under the banner of science, and not under the banner of being mystics. They never for a moment thought that they were not penetrating the mind of G-d, which was, to their minds, a holy quest. So the “laws” that they “discovered” were accepted scientifically, and not mystically. Though, by the masses, they realised that they were actually mystical.